Still in CA
I love love love caramel apples, pretty boys, the ocean, and American Idol's Kris Allen. I actually watched AI this past week, and was blown away by Kris's performance of "Heartless" and was utterly under his spell (looks-wise). Previously, I had been an Adam Lambert fan, and I admit that I like some his song choices better, and he has an amazing, unique, haunting sound. But I'm now rooting for the sweet, quitely confident Kris.

Wednesday I met with MH for a little while. It was nice to hang out with her. She's always really positive, and encouraging.

In the evening, JF picked me up and we spent some time at the Monterey mall then headed out to Sakura, an awesome buffet place in Salinas. It was a little bit out of the way, but JF said he wanted to spoil me because he hardly ever gets to see me. Aww!

Surprisingly, he was really open and talkative-- More than before. He even made reference to his huge crush on me during high school (and perhaps lingering feelings, but it is my fondest hope that he does find someone because I have never felt the same way)

We had plenty to fill our stomachs: Chicken on a stick, noodles prepared in front of you, mushroom, shrimp in many different ways, crab, Chinese delights, tapoioca, fruit, chocolate cookies, everything!

After eating, we headed to the nearby mall and decided to see a movie. Both agreed on Ghosts of Girlfriends Past much to my delight. I'm a fan of Matthew M. and love Jennifer Garner. They were great. It was a wonderfully funny, and engaging movie. It's actually realistic, and beautiful.

So, today I met up with JC in downtown Monterey. It's been quite awhile since I've seen him, so was great to spend time with him. He's a good friend from UCSC and we had a very nice time together. Had plenty to discuss, and walked around all over the place. We found a nice little spot to have lunch on the Wharf, and I got the Steak and Shrimp special which came with rice and veggies. It was damn good.

After our lunch, we took the pretty walking path to Cannery Row. It turned out to be a decent weather day, and I got a delicious looking caramel apple with dark chocolate chips. We then had a Ghiradelli sample of chocolate with peanut butter-- Was amazing! Relaxed at Starbucks for a bit, and continued walking. Hung out along the way and watched the water, boats, sea lions, fountains. All in all, a very fun time!

Later, I headed to the mall to return the long sleeve button down to Macy's. I'm so glad they took it back-- That shirt cost way too much and the other girls at the UN presentation weren't wearing that kind of formal shirt... I got sooo pissed that I busted out $40 for that stupid shirt when I didn't have to. Anyway, I have the money back so it's all good.

Met with SI after her work, and I suggested we eat at the new restaurant, Lalla Grill... It's this gorgeous looking place, with glass windows, high ceilings, different shades of white, clean, great food and reasonable prices. We ended up ordering the same sandwich complete with ham, turkey, chicken, sprouts, 2 kinds of cheese, lettuce and bacon. I mixed it up with fire fries (specially seasoned and garlicy). And I thought the waiter was really cute, which SI could guess because he's white, and a young guy. I love that SI knows me so well...

So what did we talk about but BM, and a slew of other guys I've gone out with, met on the street as they hit on me-- coming on way too strong, and so on. What I realized when I was telling all these stories: I feel like I know a lot of bi guys. Which I thought wouldn't be a problem for me, but it is hard. It's weird and it kind of freaks me out to know that they've hooked up with other males. Why the hell do I know soo many bi guys in New York City? SI thinks it's because I'm in the city which lets people be really open and the type of guys I go for are pretty boys, metros, clean cut... She suggested I go for the rugged type; they would probably be straight. Great.

I was telling her that I sometimes think back to the night that BM and I kissed. I so wanted to go back with him when he told me he had to leave soon (because he has to work early the next day) and asked me what I want to do... It was on the tip of my tongue. I was sitting on his lap, and about to ask, "Do you want me to go back with you?" For whatever reason, I held back and maybe that was for the best. If we had done more, he still probably would've reacted the same way-- Not that into me (in that way, I mean)...

So, we left Lalla Grill, and went for a little drive. We were going to take a walk on the beach, but the weather was awful: Really foggy, and cold. It felt like winter!

So just drove around for awhile, and continued talking about guys, work, career choices... I talked with RH today, who was telling me that the entertainment industry is really cut throat and that I wouldn't want to deal with celebrities (immature, immoral, no loyalty), because the industry doesn't match my sweetness. Definitely a compliment, but I still want to work in entertainment and SI basically said, people will always tell you what you should be but you should go for what you want. Even if it doesn't match, how will you know if you don't try. So true!

So, as always had a lovely time with SI and will try to meet with her again before I leave (which is next week Tuesday night).

I'm meeting with TH and SS for lunch tomorrow, which should be really cool. Then, going up to Humboldt with OS for IE's graduation! Looking forward to see her again and partying it up out there! When I'm back in Monterey will be heading over to a friend's BBQ; probably visiting Santa Cruz on Monday and still have to find time to hang out with KT and AE...